Torturing Myself with Gay Fan Fiction
AO3
I've been chewing through Inferno by Dante Alighieri, and I truly do not like reading it. The art that it spawned is some of my favorite out there, and I love the idea of the story, but damn is the book a strenuous read.
So in my lack of reading material last night, after putting Inferno away (probably for good) I decided to open up AO3 to see if anything would tickle my fancy.
I'm a bastard though, and I knew what I wanted.
The evil, self indulgent, godless craving of seeing Mordecai and Rigby fuck in my mind's eye.
Keep in mind, I am a 29 year old man. Gone are the days of my youth, and I may as well be playing bingo in a retirement home.
Fan fiction is not exactly within my age group's things-to-read category.
Regardless, I pressed on with my search for men fucking.
I found a few stories that sucked, and then I landed on one called Dude.
Please, hold your cringe tomatoes.
It had its tropes, and fluffy moments, but it teleported me right back to my youth.
The story is sad and sweet.
It portrays something everyone hopes for: a repressed gay outing to a cute friend, peppered with repressed homosexual angst, and fear of rejection.
...
Okay maybe not everyone wants that, but I do (or did). To me it's a real, true love experience.
Something that would last. Something based off friendship.
Something I've always wanted.
Not just MEAT meets OTHER MEAT from D a t i n g A p p.
Not my mom's friend's daughter who's a few years older than me that "I should text on Facebook".
...
Anyways, reading through it put me in a horribly deep introspective mindset, which I knew would happen.
How I've never truly experienced what Mordecai and Rigby did. (lol)
How I probably never will because I'm old now.
Perfect thoughts right before bed!
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Go read it for yourself though, and call me a cringe, bitch-ass weirdo. It's okay.
I swear to god if there isn't an afterlife where I can live out one of these fantasies, I'm gonna be real disappointed.
Shaking my fist, even.
Also Rigby is better off with Eileen IRL.