Sex, Tenderness, and Bitterness.
Gooning.
Beating off is the apex of sex. Never have I had a better experience with someone else.
I'm probably just bad at it. It's just too stressful.
From the cuddle to the post-nut regret, the whole song and dance of fucking is a chore in itself.
I like it sometimes, but in frequent quantity I am one to fake a stomach ache.
Spooning.
I've been with all types. Men and women. Cis, NB and trans. The associated gender doesn't really matter. They all come with their own quirks.
Here's what I feel about the two body types.
Wiener people: Much easier to gauge their satisfaction, but prep-work and the fear of poop-wiener is taxing. I'm much more inclined to make someone cum to get the process over with faster.
Pussy people: Less prep work, way more unintentional drinking of piss during oral. Performing, and the pressure to put on a good show every night is stressful.
Can we hurry this up? I have an old youtube poop paused and want to finish it.
Looming.
I understand I sound cynical and dull saying these things.
Closeness is important to me, and sex is enjoyable. I don't hate it.
I lack self confidence. I don't know how to say no sometimes, and just muscle through it. I try to keep myself mentally preoccupied while laying pipe, usually thinking about hypotheticals or what chores I still have to do. I'd rather not disappoint my partner.
Doing this is wholly unfair to the other person. The other human trying to have a blissful time, and hoping I feel as oxytocin-flooded as they do.
I think it's due to low self esteem. I don't feel like they want to fuck because they are attracted to me, rather they're just horny because another human is in bed with them. I've had partners ask me if I'd like this or that, and I deny and go with whatever they want. It's the easier choice for me.
What if they aren't into what I'll ask of them?
Would it feel like a chore to them?
I've cried during. Not weeping, but watery eyed and choked up.
I'm a pussy.
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My ideal situation would be getting violently railed by Po from Kung Fu Panda. Face being pushed into the dirt and a spit-lube job. Fart jokes and Jack Black lines and everything.
