Booger Diary

A very epic lol.

Bro...

Deltarune 3 and 4 fucked me up emotionally.

I had the same feeling when I played Undertale almost 10 years ago. I remember finishing it, sobbing to myself on my dad's laptop, then going to my room and crying.

What a fuckin gift to humanity Toby Fox is.

I binged the new stuff earlier this week and I'm still all jacked around.

Fantastic game.

Bwo...

Unsure of my emotional responses to things like this. It's always stories portraying a more interesting, romantic, heavy, and honest life that do this to me.

Maybe it's something my soul knows I crave.

It feels extremely similar to mourning or grieving. But in a good way, and is a separate feeling.

In a synesthesia-kinda-way, mourning/grieving would be grey and hollow. A heart with dry tendons and muscle, pumping stale air through the body. A seemingly unending maelstrom of sobbing and bore down teeth.

This feeling is blue and red, highly saturated colors with a gaussian-blur filter between their swirling borders. The body is warm with blood and tears, and the lungs are full. A strong yearning to relive those touching memories again. It's a "Take me back." sort of thing.

Both of those feelings have a few neurons connected in my brain for some reason, and I do not understand the second one.

fallen down...

Even when I'm completely alone, I cannot bring myself to fully release when crying. I unintentionally repress it down to a few puffs of air and a watered pair of eyeballs.

Worth it though.

What a beautiful story.

What a funny chomp sound effect.